Acceptance With Joy

Time flies when you don’t want it to.
When you were gone,
It was all I could do to try and speed it up.
Where are we going?
How exactly are we getting there?
I keep trying to plan this path out.
But it’s not working so well.
I dread having to miss you again.
We’ve been through so much already,
It’d be nice if it just ended here.
I’m tired of struggling.
Of making alters and laying down my will.
The promise doesn’t seem to get closer.
You are here.
You promised you wouldn’t leave.
But…what if?
I am scared,
I’m admitting now that this confidence is a mask.
Let me lean on you.
Push me up this hill because I’m tired.
It feels cruel now
But in my heart I know its what I need.
Hold my hand.
I need to learn not to push you away.
The Promise that sorrow and suffering
Will transform into peace and joy
Will come to pass in time.
‘Till then teach me to be thy handmaiden;
“Acceptance with Joy”.