Reason

This poetry,
These prayers,
They are like breathing to me now.
I dont have to think anymore,
As these feelings take shape on paper.

I feel so much.
I have so many emotions to sort through.
And to breathe them out,
In order to understand them a little better,
Is so much easier than stuffing them inside.

Does this at all make sense?

do you know me?
are you sure?
do you really know what happened?
or is it all just speculation?

and yeah i heard you gossiping.
heard the whispers,
saw the looks.

are you aware that i wasnt the victim?
that i was as stupid as anyone else in love.
and yeah, i should have been wiser,
but will you just let me live this down?

how do think it feels,
to be the elephant in the room.
to have to wonder what you are thinking of me,
when im just being myself.

do you know me?
have you looked into my heart?
what have you based your judgments on?
were you there?
did you see how it happend?

please just give us a chance.
we're trying to make this better,
cant you see that?

Unwanted Truths

Im having dreams...nightmares, rather

I see you covered in dust, still trying to make the world a better place

While you slowly fade away

You smile...seemingly in your own world

You've barely survived by pushing everything aside

And telling yourself that you are seeing something else

Your grey hair is falling out and your skin is wearing away

And I'm trying to reach out to you, but you don't seem to really see me

You are wasting away

I can see it all now

And now that you've arrived, it seems to be too late

You are off in a daze

Trying to make reality go away

Come, please take my hand

This isn't who you are

You used to be alive

The first to see past the obvious

The one who fought the hardest for the rest of the world

How did you not see it coming?

And how did you end up here?

I'm at a loss for what to say to you

I hate these dreams

Because in them i see the truth

The truth about me and you

Are we both now too far gone to get a hold on life?